Wednesday, February 17, 2010

I am his MOM

We have all heard the saying “Where did time go?” and now I am saying it! Where did time go? How can my first born son already be a man and making grown up decision?

I can still remember the day he was born. I thought he was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. Love at first site is what it was!! All I wanted to do was to sit and hold him. At those moments I didn’t think I could ever love a child as much at I love him. Of course I realized how wrong I was when his younger brother was born. I have enough motherly love to give to all my kids… and more!!

Now here I am, my son, joining the Marines and leaving in June. A very honorable thing to do, but I still want to hold and protect him. I am a mom! I don’t want to let him go. Can’t I just keep him here and hold him a little longer and protect him from all the bad in the world?
Yes, I know, this is the way it’s supposed to be. He can’t live with us forever and we wouldn’t want him to. But now that the time is so close I’m feeling a little selfish and I want more. I am a mom who realizes that 18 years, is really not that long.

I can’t help but be a little proud of him and the man he is becoming. I just wish I didn’t, all a sudden, feel so sad. I know it will be fine. Many mothers before me have done the same thing. They are my examples but I still can’t help but think… I am his mom!!
I have earned the right to worry and miss the heck out of him.